Make what is left of me live forever Why do I feel moronic now? I need to think more than my mind will allow. But I don't know how. As if I've misplaced my mind, I don't even know what it is I can't find! Why do I waist so much of my time? I've spent so many days thinking, only to forget every thought that I had. Is this bad? Am I just sad? Am I now afraid of dreaming? Or am I now afraid of seeming so mixed up, confused, and seeking something just to take my feelings out? The only parts of my thoughts that aren't lost now, are the ones your reading about. Just don't forget that I'm here. It is my worst fear… to disappear. 4-1-03                                                         next                                                 back